the scorching sun could have bleed ur skin

im back~
was trapped in the scorching bishan estates while looking for the student care center just now,when its just right infront of me.
stupid me got blk 231 written as 321 and end up walking one big round.
talk about stupid Mich.

my lovely sis aka Yng had finally,ok not finally,but fallen so deep in love with that guy.what i really wanna say here is she finally knows love and the feeling of being really in love with someone.completely accepting someone.

and me?its not fair if i were to say this,and i relaly dun like it now jason is gonna read this.
but this blog has already been a place where the one deep inside me come out to talk.
my intention of dedicating this site to Jason is that he will learn about me as well.
but speaking of e feeling of invasion,Ms Crayon would know it all.

Jason is really sweet to accept such an unlovable chick like me.you know what he msg me?
"i love you becoz you make me wanna stand by u when u r down,pull u up when u r low,let you slap when u like it.(of coz i dun really slap,my real slap would hurt) n i hope you love me becoz i stand by u,held u up and slap(....)
you are not in a difficult transitional stage,trying to find ur place and worth..just hang on n u'll pull thru..once you get a job,everything will be plain sailing."

sigh...i really think i love him..but again i would always question myself what do i know about love?do i really love him as in loving HIM or i love him becoz he is here as my boyfriend?
i dare not say..i really dare not...

heard of Jay Chou ?i really hope that i wont be the one that one day..he has to dedicate the song to.

i dunno what have got into me..again.
what do i want,who do i want?its like suddenly im utterly lost.
i live on as per normal,i still went for job hunting,interviews and so.i still eat and watch the tv.i still smile and laugh when i have to.
suddenly im like..a no life thing being program with all those things so i can live LIKE a normal person.and so i live till it breaks down again,and feel all the shit that im feeling now.

Jason..jason...i would just like to say..should one day,you find me not the one u shld love already...i hope you get a better gal who will treat u right.

and there i will have other pple telling me that im must be outta my mind to say this to my bf,and not we are breaking apart.

oh god~i hope i can stand right back.and forget everything thats behind me...and will love jason as much as he loves me.

"I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time" --TLC.